Didn't see that coming...

Ok, so i lied about going to the E league basketball game...it was raining all night and it was so pretty sounding that i comfortably slept through my alarm and didn't get up until the afternoon.

Now i've spent my day procrastinating and watching cute videos on youtube that make me cry.

Productive day obviously.

I'm slightly hungry, though i've had two bowls of cereal today...i guess i should eat something a bit more substantial...

....clearly by now you've realized i have absolutely nothing of importance to say.....

I did however finnish the The Tudors yesterday...I bawled...

In the end when Henry Vlll talks to his oldest friend Charles who is ill, about how they've known each other for a long time..and they reminisce on the good times they had...then Henry says he doesn't want his ill friend to die and that as king he commands him to be healed.. then its just flashbacks of them over the years and then it shows Charles on his deathbed and his mistress closing his eyes... MAN i was a MESS...and for 2 reasons..

1.Charles is played by Henry Cavill...who is by far one of the most attractive men on the planet...so who wants to see him die? NOT ME..thats who.

2. It makes you think about life and how well you are living it. Are you currently living it to its fullest potential? Are you making a difference? Will there be a person at your side in the end who was with you in the beginning? Will you be leaving anything behind worth leaving? If the answer to any of those is yes then i feel you are lucky. Even in the roughest times people can make life beautiful...However if the answer is No then is it ever to late to change that? I know i have faults and i'm not perfect. Neither was Henry Vlll. He pissed a lot of people off, had countless people murdered, treated his children like crap for the most part, and was never faithful to his wives...however, he did the best he could, and was motivated a lot by the power of love. He also dealt with people who all had their own agendas and goals..I imagine it was a pretty lonely life when it comes down to brass tax. But he dealt, and lived long, did what he thought was right...    Death is always sad... I imagine things were a bit different back then but universally, its hard to have to learn to live without someone... So i feel bad for henry in the end..when he had to watch all his friends around him die, and face his own mortality ultimately alone, knowing that whatever he did, he did, and that was it, no take backs, and coming to terms with that..and having to learn to be ok with himself in his dying days...

wow...got a little intense there....

....Clearly by now you've realized i've found something to say....

so i'll leave you with this..its one of my favorites...


~I am convinced that it is not the fear of death, of our lives ending that haunts our sleep so much as the fear...that as far as the world is concerned, we might as well never have lived.~